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Monday, 30 March 2009

LOVE...again

Hey ya,

Now I know that all of you have already read about this topic loads of time, but what the hell, I'm going to write again. The idea came up while I was chatting with someone in a land far far away (well, not so far la, actually =P) and she suggested that I write what are my feelings towards this, etc.

I honestly don't know what to write. I can't seem to think straight whenever I have other things going on, be it good or bad. Say, for example, I have a crush on someone. I'll keep thinking about her even though I'm doing something else. Or, say I just got my results and it didn't go well as I would have like, I will be sulking in my room for days with only meals, showers, and prayers as exceptions. That is why, my fellow readers, my blog is not updated everyday, and it can become stagnant and lifeless for a while. It means that I have something going on in my head or in my schedule that will keep me off the keyboard, mouse and the world without borders.
Oh, I'm drifted from my intended-topic. Hmm...what am I feeling right now about this? I still believe that love is something best unsaid by the the two folds of heart i.e. it doesn't matter if you decided to date her but not taking it further. It will only make things more and more complicated should there be any advancement in relationship status. But both of the lovebirds must decide to keep it 'simple'. There are times when one person thought they are keeping it simple, while the other is keeping her hopes up for a proposal to be in a relationship. If this happens, then bye-bye to keeping it simple and a relationship. As for me, I don't mind either. As a person, I would be delighted to know that I am in a relationship and I have someone that I care and cares for me as well. On the other hand, it would scare the shit out of me thinking about marriages and kids. Hence, the having someone that you care and vice versa but not in a relationship. But it kills me whenever it stops so abruptly when the other half loves somebody else and I can't do anything since, well, I am not IN A RELATIONSHIP.
So it all depends on the two parts of equation to decide which is best to make it balanced. As long as there is faith by the both of them towards each other, then they can stay strong, be in officially in a relationship or just keeping it plain simple. Faith and understanding play a big part in shaping one's love life and the players need all of these, among other things, to keep ahead of the game or it is game over...
Cheerio...

p/s: To someone reading this, shouldn't you be preparing for something? =P

Sunday, 29 March 2009

Desire

I BELIEVE IN DESIRE


愛しく強く飽きしめて
染め変えてあげる
激しく高く燃え上がる
恋頃よ
I BELIEVE IN DESIRE

静香に亜樹をかけて
遠ざかろ靴音
無意味な矢さしたあけ
SOFAで感じている

王浅し我きて
何もなかったみたいに
得ない時間だけを
阿多刻み始めるよ

愛しく深く抱きしめて
染め変えてあげる
美しく咲くバラの用に
はかなきもの
I BELIEVE IN DESIRE

今まで過ちさえ
知らずにきた私
今でわき身の胸で
眠りについた私

真夜中のCALL
戸惑い隠せない
誰かの言葉におびえていた

今すぐ早く抱き寄せて
暖めてあげる
偽りのRINGより
ずっと確かなもの
I BELIEVE IN DESIRE

ささやく声と手を重ね
離れられずいた
寄り添う二人わ夜明けを
憎んでいた

愛しく強く抱きしめて
染め変えてあげる
激しく高く目尾あがる
恋心よ
I BELIEVE IN DESIRE

Wednesday, 25 March 2009

Horizon Afar

It has been a long, long day,

Walking under the ray of light,
The day is nothing short of gay,
The faces of joy and delight.

Yet I can't seem to smile,
Not to even crack it,
Oh this life is so vile,
Wonder how I can survive it.

I looked into the horizon,
I fell on my knees,
Hands high into heaven,
Mouthing something like pleas.

I asked the Almighty above,
To tell me the answer,
Is is true that I can't love?
That my life is for no one to bother?

I garnered my strength,
With all my might, I tried,
To stand up on my legs,
Along with a grimace of pain, I cried.

Rain now trickling down my face,
Wept my brows with my sleeves,
I turned away at a snail's pace,
Head down, with feelings of sorrow and grief...

This is, the end of the road for me...

Tuesday, 24 March 2009

S.H.I.T

OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT!!!!


I feel so embarrassed and felt like an idiot. Saiful, you stupid fuck! Why???? You idiot, idiot. You just blew it BIG TIME!! Better put your head in the washing machine NOW!!!

Monday, 23 March 2009

Weekend

Hey ya,

Now I can (hopefully) update my blog regularly since I've finished all of my assignments and with only 1 week of class left. I don't have any new ideas on what to write, really. So I guess, I'll just write about my weekend. It was well, considering that I actually down with fever.

Saturday:
Woke up around 10.30am after Mo called me to ask me to come to the football field to train the girls for the upcoming tournament next week. I was so tired considering I only had 4 hours of sleep. But I went, eventually. Trained the girls about the basic stuff of footballing. Puteh and Arief were there, too. And owh, Rahim was there too. Had a little 5-on-5 and it was fun altogether. After that, I chilled out at Zira's place with Naz and Aliana for an hour or so. Had this peach-apple drink which I truly liked and didn't even know it exists. And I also cooked for them char kuey teow. It was ok, not bad at all. Went back around 2pm and wanted to go to the city but ended staying at home. EG came to Cardiff that night and went to dinner with him along with a few other friends to celebrate Muni's birthday. Had a long chit-chat with them until we went back around midnight. By then, I was already tired and went back to sleep around 1am.

Sunday
Woke up around noon after receiving a call from Fahmi about football training and so I went (despite feeling dizzy due to fever) with my housemates. EG went back that evening. Spent every ounce of my energy playing and was (according to Naz) pale. Stayed back after we finished to help the girls trained some more. All in all, we finished around 5pm. Headed back for dinner (pizza) and retracted myself into my room and started reading "New Moon", of which I know most of you have already read. And since it was such a long time since I last watched Twilight, so I watched it again to make sure I don't get confused while reading. And now, I am writing here and this is when I stop. Hehe. Well, it is not much of an update really with a seemingly normal weekend. I just hope that my fever would go away so that I can go to class tomorrow. Till then, cheers.

Friday, 20 March 2009

Remain Hopeful

Hey ya,

Been too fucking busy lately, didn't even have the time to just sit down and have my own "me" time due to assignment, which surprisingly went well. Well, now that Easter is just around the corner, I am still yet to plan my holiday. Spoke to my brother about the possibility of going to Dublin for a weekend or so, hopefully he won't be busy. I still can't find a reason why I should go to Dublin but a couple of friends asked me to go there for trying my luck with something. They all know I have been having some sort of curse when it comes to this matter and hopefully this curse would end.
I don't have much faith in this matter but will give it a shot nonetheless. My history has not been on my side and so I'm going to try and make it right this time. But how much will I gain? I'm not sure, just have to go with the flow, as they say...

Friday, 13 March 2009

Girls' Generation

I am so addicted to this group from Korea


Girls' Generation