フラヴルオフライフ

Flavor of life

ありがとうと君にいられると何だか切ない

さようならの後の解けぬ魔法わくほろ苦い

The flavor of life

友達でも老い人でもない中間地点で

風格のひを埋めみてる甥古津

後一歩あう乱せないエイで

じれったいのあんのって？

ありがとうと君にいられると何だか切ない

さようならの後の解けぬ魔法わくほろ苦い

The flavor of life

甘いだけの誘い文句味家のない奥

そんあもの胃わ興味わそそられない

重い通り胃いかないときだって

人生うてたもんあないって

どうしたの？お急にき苛烈の”運、何でもない”

さようならのとにいえるが尾私らしくない

新字体尾願えば絵が鵜小戸何だか切ない

“愛してるよ”おりも“相好き”の方が意味らしいじゃない？

あ刷れかけていた人の思いを乙然思い出す頃

売りつもる雨期の白さをもうとうなおに喜びたいよ

だいやもんどよりも柔らかくてあたたかな未来

手にしたい尾限りある時間尾君と過ごしたい

”ありがとう”と君にいられると何だか切ない

さようならの後の解けぬ魔法わくほろ苦い

The flavor of life

For The Heart I Once Had

Heaven today is but a way
To a place I once called home
Heart of a child, one final sigh
As another love goes cold

Once my heart beat to the
Rhythm of the falling snow
Blackened below, the river now flows
A stream of molten virgin snow

For the heart I'll never have
For the child forever gone
The music flows because it longs
For the heart I once had

Living today without a way
To understand the weight of the world
Faded and torn, old and forlorn
My weak and hoping heart

For the child, for the light
For the heart I once had
I'll believe and foresee
Everything I could ever be

For the heart I'll never have
For the child forever gone
The music flows because it longs
For the heart I once had

Time will not heal a dead boy's scars
Time will kill

For the heart I'll never have
For the child forever gone
The music flows because it longs
For the heart I once had

Choosing The Right Words Is Not Easy

Heya,

Leaving this blog stagnant has been quite a norm for me over the last couple of months as I didn't have as much time as I would have liked but more specifically, there hasn't been much going on for me lately.

Just got back from playing paintball a few days ago and yeah, it was hell of a fun. Being able to be myself after grinding my nose and burn those midnight oil certainly has provided a great lift for me in terms of happiness and confidence. I've certainly been on the downside on those two traits over the last two full moons. Being champion of paintball 2 years in a row brought about a great sense of achievement and relief. Hopefully I'll be able to continue to do that albeit with 10 bruise marks all over me. Might be going to Swansea in the next day or two pending on the weather and time. Need to clean up the house as well as we wanna clear the house of its unused fossils and delivered them to the Islamic Relief Centre for good use.

Also watched Last Chance Harvey. It was a great movie depicting normal people with normal lives and the love spurned out when you are 'running' out of time with your life and being caged with work and personal problems. Having watched this, I called Sarah babe for advice and help with my own battle with personal problems. She has been integral in shaping my life to what it is today and babe, whatever we talked about that time, we keep it to ourselves yeah? Would really appreciate it if you can do this. And owh, this goes to Hana as well. We didn't get to talk as much but I think I pretty much said everything that I need to. Hopefully, the ripple caused by a drop of water doesn't create a big wave, if you know what I mean. Like I said, choosing the right words is not easy. And silence is golden and with only the two people that I treasure the most is a perfect way to epitomise those phrases.

Well, I'm running out of ideas. I'll try and keep my promise to keep my blog up-to-date yeah?

Cheers, loves

Exam sucks

OFFICIALLY I am at the lowest point of my entire life.

I have two crunching papers next week (Monday and Tuesday) and it's fucking tough just looking at the notes and the past years. I still don't understand the purpose of examinations because all those efforts that you put in over the course of the year is being judged by a single exam. It's a bit unfair, in my opinion. There is a form of unfairness in that. Some people would study like hell over those months and suddenly, he got a migraine or whatever. And it couldn't come at a better time than during the exam itself. And the university judge the student performance based on that. I believe and still believe that giving assignments a larger proportion of the overall marks is a more appropriate measure of a student's performance. It would be unfair for those who didn't attend a single class but manage to score in the exam because he analyses the exam papers and can get the general picture of the questions that will be asked in the exams. It is unfair for those who have worked their asses off for this one exam. I can be fairly biased in my opinion because I have a knack of not scoring in my exams but got a fairly good result for my assignments. I do believe that in working life, you are not judged by a single 3-hour examination but over a period of time. So I do think that assignments are a better measure of performance rather than exams.

Hatred

Hey,

I am so sick with myself lately. I've been too busy studying and I don't even have the time for myself until I ended up having high fever almost everyday and to make things worse, I threw up quite a lot yesterday. I couldn't sleep as well as I could and I ended up rolling in bed screaming at myself until I fell asleep around 5am, when the sun was about to rise. I don't even have the time to spend with my loved one because of this. All I wanted to say is fuck you exams...

Halfway

Hey ya,

Sorry for leaving this blog stagnant over the last fortnight or so. Been really busy with exams. And I have to apologise because I don't think I will be updating my blog until my last paper (2nd June). I have finished 3 papers so far (which were like uber shits) and I have 3 more to go. So it's fair to say I am halfway back from hell, but it's going to get tougher till I reach back (hopefully) in one piece. Till then, cheers.

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